i've been waiting for the day to arrive.

i did not ask for more.

wat i wish is just to spend the day with him.

but ended up he cant.

i was imagining tat he will give me any surprise or wat.

but i noe actually all these imagines are trying to console me only.

i just wana make myself feel better.

he has been always angry with me.
this time round can i be angry with him?

i can be understanding towards him.

but y cant he be abit more understanding towards me?

i had been feeling so unfair.

i always dare not to say this to him.

coz i noe if i really do it.

there's a high chance of quarrel.

i dont want it to happen.

tats y i just keep to myself.

so call always 'listen' to him.

i try to understand y he want me to do this or do tat.

actually all he wants is tat i dont do anything tat he dont like or dont allow me to do.

well..

as long as its within my limits.

as long as he is not far too much.

for sure i will do it.

but from the bottom of my heart.

i can say tat he nv treat me far too much before.

hmm..

he's always angry with me coz i did not 'obey' him.

as in..

he dont like me to stay at work too long aft my working time.

but i stayed at work coz i always got endless work to do.

he always tell me to leave it and complete the next day.

but to me.

i will feel uneasy if i left my work undone.

and the worst thing is.

there's more job for me the next day.

how?

we always quarrel regarding my long working hours.

actually he dont like it its bcoz..

he dont want me to over-tired.

see..

actually wat he said its for my own good.

im just kind of stubborn not to 'obey' him.

well..

now wat i trying to do is to understand how he thinks.

(:

yeah~

thinking of going to watch F1 night race.

made me feel so excited.

im going to watch it with haffis and fadzli.

hee!

on 27sept aft midnight.

haffis says tat we can watch it by the roadside.

ok lor.

y not?

F1 leh.

its so rare lor.

=D